Progress not Perfection

My goal this week is to focus on progress and not perfection, which can be hard if you are a perfectionist :)  I had a very low, low point two Saturday’s ago, it was as low as I’ve ever remember being and it was at that point that I reached a fork in the road.  Do I give up or do I make some real changes in my life?

Well, I decided giving up wasn’t the answer.  The answer was giving up control though, in the recovery movement they say “let go and let God”, so that is what I am doing.  It actually has been a great relief to give up my pursuit of perfection and know that it is OK to seek progress instead.  The past week has been amazing in how I have felt.  My wife commented to me last night “wasn’t it just last Saturday……”, yeah it was, it seems like months ago.

I’m looking at things in terms of sobriety, my sobriety is based on the unhealthy ways I cope with anxiety (staying inside my house, Googling illness and disease, taking my pulse, taking my temperature, etc.) Today, I mark my 9th day of sobriety.