Back to the Doctor

Tomorrow morning I have an appointment with the psychologist.  I’m on an “every two weeks” schedule right now.  It seems for the past couple of months the run up to my meetings are filled with really good days and then the day of the doctor visit arrives and my anxiety begins to creep back up.  For some reason when I think about how long I have been seeing the psychologist I get scared.  My mind tells me “you have been going for almost a year now.  Shouldn’t you be better already?  How long is this going to go on?”

The truth is, I am getting better.  My mind and body have been beaten up over the years with negative thoughts — thats something that can’t be healed in a few months.

And you know what anxious mind?  I CAN SEE THE PSYCHOLOGIST AS LONG AS I DAMN WELL FEEL LIKE IT!!!