I Guess I Should Give An Update

My last update I was questioning if I had pushed things too hard and too fast. Well, I just may have. I slipped into a mini setback and begin to question all the progress I have made. I look at this as a good thing as this setback has really forced me to take a good look at where I am in my life.

A common theme with me is about control, I need to feel in control, even through my logical mind tells me that no one is really ever in complete control. I did a lot of soul searching and finally arrived last night at a destination. That destination was for me to turn my life over to a higher power. This doesn’t mean just sitting back and letting the wind blow me to and fro, no, it simply means admitting that as a human I don’t fully understand all things. I don’t have nor will I ever have complete control, that is what faith is really all about.

We all have faith. Faith that when I turn the key the car will start. Faith that the pilot will safely get me from A to B. Faith that when we go to sleep at night, we’ll wake up the next morning. Giving up that need to know everything, control everything was like a giant weight being lifting off my shoulders — figuratively and literally.