Hello….

….My Name Is Jason and I’m a Hypochondriac. There I said it.

The last few weeks I have really been taking an inventory of where I am and where I have come from. The ‘where I have come from’ part is hard, looking back and seeing the state I was in scares me, scares me alot.

The ‘where I am’ scares me too. Although I believe that I have made great strides forward in my recovery from anxiety, I still have to admit that I don’t have power of my chronic worries about my health.

The frustrating thing with hypochondria is that you need to attack it at the thought level not at the symptom level. I’ve tried the symptom approach it doesn’t work. Go to the doctor, get a test, says you are fine, you feel relieved for 2 days and then you start to question if the test was accurate. Or, talk your self out of symptom A just to have it go away so symptom B can pop up and become your new obsession.

I think, no, I know that I need to go back and start doing the Daily Mood Log again, I need to do something, anything to break out of this cycle of never ending worry over anything and everything that can be catastrophic.