If I Stopped Thinking....

This week my doctor suggested that I look into mindfulness meditation as a method for gaining control over my non-stop mind. I was thinking, of course :), about this last night. If I could stop thinking about my physical symptoms they would just go away but it is because of my physical symptoms that I think and because I think I have physical symptoms. AHHHHHH!!!!!!

The doctor again reminded me that anxiety is often harder and takes longer to recover from than addiction, depression and other common mental health disorders. Even though I could dwell on the fact that recovery takes time and it is so painful, I choose to be happy for what I have.

An amazing cast of friends who understand and do not judge me. Who are supportive in my recovery and help give me that extra push when I am lacking. Without these friends, I could not survive.

A loving family who hasn’t given up on me, even though I see myself as less than adequate for them, they are always there to pick me up when I fall and are the thoughts in my mind when I think I can no longer go on. Without my family around me everyday, I could not survive.